Today I found out from Welfare....Yes, welfare that I have to work I can not be a stay at home Mom. They won't help us until we get on housing. I would give up my pride and everything to stay home with Alana. We do have to have a roof over our heads and a car to get to work and put food on the table. I just feel like I am cheating her and myself from a great relationship. I don't feel like I am going to have the quality and quantity of time I should with her. So does that mean I should give up the gym after work to be with her an extra hour?? I don't think so I need my Mommy time right? It is not being selfish right? I need a way to relieve this stress and just be me right? I believe it will make me a better Mom.
I guess one day I will learn to be ok with this but I don't know how long that will take.
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