After lots of prayer I have decided to be a stay at home Mommy. I know it's crazy right! I honestly never thought I would say those words but my priorities have changed. I honestly do not believe that anyone can take care of her the way I can can. Alana and I are bonded together now and I want her to know that I am always here for her.We have had such a rough time the past 3 months with the c-section and Adam losing his job and me not being able to exclusively breastfeed her. I have loved every minute I have had with her but I want have more time with her. If I were to go back to work I would leave at 6:45 and be home around 3:30 feed her and play with her and then go to the gym. I need mommy time too right? By the time I got home from the gym it would be time to start dinner for Adam and I and get Alana ready for bed. That is no time with her compared to what I have had over the past 3 months. I feel weird and worry if I am not with her for an hour or two let alone 8+. How do I plan on doing this you ask. I am getting help from the state. I know I know here comes the judgement but at this point I just don't care. I am not going on welfare forever. I do plan on going back to work I love working. I just want to give my daughter the best start I can in this world and if I have to sacrifice having cable and cell phones extra and toys then so be it. I believe that the only thing that matters to a baby is being with Mommy and Daddy and knowing they are always there for you.
I know there are women out there who do work and I am not trying to judge you at all be proud that you have the support to do so.
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