And then there were 3!: Confessions of a new Mom.

And then there were 3!: Confessions of a new Mom.: Alana will be 6 months on the 29th! I know it has gone by so fast right?!!! I am exhausted and so depressed at where I am at compared to whe...

Confessions of a new Mom.

Alana will be 6 months on the 29th! I know it has gone by so fast right?!!! I am exhausted and so depressed at where I am at compared to where I thought I would be, I thought I would have lost all of the baby weight plus more, I thought I would be back to working out 6+ hours a week like I was before. I thought I would be breastfeeding Alana and shedding the pounds I thought Adam would still be working the same job and not driving 40min. one way to work. My life has flipped upside down and I am not handling things very well.  I have gone back to old habits that I never thought I would! I am drinking Dt. Coke (Caffeine free of course) but with that brings the ice cream and cookies....When I go grocery shopping I am a champ. I will buy veggies and fruits and lean meats (93-97% lean) No sugary treats, whole wheat pasta, brown rice. Granted Adam gets his soda and crackers or chips but I honestly don't touch those. I have the best intentions but no follow through. During the week for breakfast I eat a peanut butter sandwich on Ezekiel bread in the car on my way to work. At lunch I eat a turkey sandwich on whole wheat bread with pesto turkey 1 slice of provolone lettuce tomatoes and cucumbers and a few chips like 5-6 because I have to eat it in 10 minutes. Then after work I stop to get a cup of iced coffee (decaf) and head home. I am so exhausted and miss Alana so I hang out with her and when Adam asks what I want for dinner I don't know. So most nights he is running to subway, or burger king/taco bell because we can not chose just one together, or pizza hut.  I honestly don't know how Mom's do it! How do you work full time and come home, work out and make dinner and take care of the baby and keep everything clean? I just haven't figured it out! I have been working out consistently after having Alana which is a huge plus! I am up to 4 days a week and on Saturdays I throw in a 30 min. sculpting class to help with the weights. Now I have an injured knee and I am feeling the doubts coming in. This is a time where I can give in and just let go free myself from trying so hard and just live however I want to. Yes I will feel guilty constantly and hate how I look everyday but it would be much easier. Or I can let my knee heal and go back to working out and kick this stupid food and drink problem in the butt! Nothing in life comes easy right? Things that are great are worth the fight right? When I get to the size I want to be will I be happy? So many questions....